luv daddy so muchie...= )

have a nice talk wif daddy yesterday
daddy so support me..
i told him everythg he jus say
[no matter hw i oso stand by ur side]
so gam dung
daddy i promised u
in tis 3 months i surely will let it go
will nt thk about him anymore
i will do it!!!!!!
still talk alot wif dad
daddy say am a brave girl
will do the best for the thg i want
so...i will do my best just to let it go
i wont find u all to talk about my thgs anymore
mayb u all jus feel very sienz when listening wat am talking
so...i rather talk to dad...
at least..he wont jus answer me [dun thk so much]
daddy i luv u so much
get well soon..!!

-

知道真相真的会让我狂飙泪
我知道一定会很痛
可是我就是控制不到自己不去问他
到底是真是假
答案不是我想要的
我哭的无法停止
很痛
我总爱用伤害最深的方式
去忘记你
我讨厌这样
放弃是我唯一能做的
我一定会
我一定会狠狠的忘记你
不会再期待着什么奇迹
别傻了
我彻底失望
对你 我彻彻底底的感到失望

meaningless

yes i can be strong
yes i can live without u
yes i can forget u easily
yes this
yes that
i do my best just to let it go
who the fuck would like to suffering in tis kind of situation
i jus need somebody to console
y i get fuck by ppl
[u the one who let it go. u the one who regret nw]

y i will brk up wif him
y? disappointed!
hw many promised he made
bt hw many he do it for me
promised me tis n tat
bt DO NOTHING
nobody noe hw much he promised me
nobody noe hw many time i forgive him
1 time..2 time..3 time...until 10 times
still wan hw many times to forgive
i promised i do it
he promised dun hv to do then promised is for wat!
i brk up wif him..i very happy?
who the fuck noe i everyday cant slp
who noe i unhappy
all jus say am the one who wanna brk up
never thk the one who say brk up will get hurt too?
if i dun love him. i can jus forget him jus like the wind pass by
bt am nt
in tis 2 years so many thg he hurt me i oso forgive him
bcoz of wat? fun a?
every little thg will remind me of him for whole day
tis feeling is not nice at all
am dying deep inside n who noe
i dun dare talk to mum..dunwan she worry
i talk to u..u say is me
who sumore i can talk to
i dun hv much frenz...u r my best frenz
hw cum u nt support me..i really dunno hw to say my feeling
am nt really wanna brk up wif him
bt hw can he never find me for a whole week afta i bk from kl
i edi told him my phone no credit
he oso no on9 come find me
jus bcoz he saw tat msg then judge me
judge me is wif ah bear
is tis fair?
FAIR ONOT...he is my bf
hw can he nt belif me all the time
he always nt belif me...i oso like tis
then? y no ppl say i good
i really so bad meh
bad until brk up oso no nid console me meh
he at thr..u all see very easy..
am ALONE here
who can see my cat face when i cry in midnite
he unhappy..call frenz clubbing
i unhappy...cry myself...
tis call fair meh?
i really dunno hw only is fair
i do my best jus for him
and at the end wat i get is jus nth
i bcoz of him..go bk 2 times...poor until no money to eat
i bcoz of him..argue wif family say i dunwan stay uk anymore
i wan go back...then gt fuck by mum n dad
i drink until wan die..asma come..vomit wong dam sui..WHY
all jus bcoz of him..JUST HIM!
i wat oso bcoz of him....n wat i get? nth
am the bad one. he is the best one
am the most bad girl in this world
am the most stupid girl in this world
used to imagine he is my husband and be wif me rest of his life
all tis jus imagine..not real at all
i use true heart to love u
and all i get from u is nth.
not even any position in ur heart at all.

( - )

i hate it so much!
tis feeling is killing deep inside me
its more worth than dying

u go out wif her
wearing the jersey i bought it for u
sumore wanna post it out

when u wearing tis jersey dun u rmb me?
tis feeling i really hate
wat the fuck is wrong wif me!!!!!!!!

my heart is killing me
i bet i got heart attack soon!
cant slp everyday
cant eat well everyday
tis life jus like shit !

hw can u be like tat
i hate u! i hate myself MORE!
damn!

can i cry?

feel like..
no meaning living in tis world
dun even know i live for wat
can sumbody tell me
live for wat?

so much pain so much hurt
being a human is damn fucking difficult
especially our heart
wan A but doing B
hw cum...dun understand

feel like tis world full of fake ppl
am included in tat fake ppl group too..mayb
i try nt to cry for so long
pretend that am very happy
pretend that am very strong n tough
do i success?
yes i did
every1 thks am fine
am ok wif everythg
can TVB gv me some award too?

tired of being fake ppl
can i cry? being strong girl nt easy i noe
i try so hard to let it go
i tried! everyone just saying is my fault..
so nice...mayb really is me

i really dunwan to care bt i cant
am human i got feelings too
bt who cares my feeling? lolx
no one.
blame here blame thr oso dunno for wat
humans..
cant understand
really dun understand...
i jus noe tat i wanna cry

失败了

不是说好不为了你哭吗
不是说好不想你的吗
不是都说好了吗

看来我失败了

我多希望你不在我的脑海出现
你一直出现 你不累吗
哭了到底是为了什么

谢谢我
谢谢我把自己弄得那么丑
谢谢我
谢谢我把自己弄得那么可怜

真是有够犯贱

拜托
真的够了

我希望我能失忆
不想再这样下去

继续

很努力的去忘了你
我恨我一直回想过去
让我连呼吸都觉得很无奈

不想每天想到半夜
搞到自己失眠
很痛苦

所谓
放下容易忘记难

不要紧吧
一路走来都我自己一个人
也没有什么分别

也知道你开始你的新生活
只是我还停留在那时的世界
我相信
总有一天
我会做到
至于那天是几时
依然是个未知数..

untitled.

dunno wat title wan to put
so jus untitled..=.=

many thgs happened in a sudden
very sienz
money family frenz love
faint

bt nvm
as long as my mum beside
everythg will be okay

found out who is his gf
question is..why i need to noe
oh..because_____________.
because of what? herm....
oh yah..i noe tat girl
she is the one who sms sweet stuff wif him last time
lolx..they finally get together..
muahahaha
funny =.="
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i found my true love as well
JAY CHOU
oh yea...he will nt hurt me
he very love me
lolx..so am gonna support him in MARCH
cant wait..oh my goshhhh
mum said i can buy the ROCK ZONE ticket
which mean~~~ i can see jay chou very NEAR
bt 760rm for 1 ticket...abit expensive
nvm..all just for jay...
i love jay
i love my mummy MORE
thankiu mum...everything i need is just you
i cant live without U
i will only say tis to my mum n dad
no other person anymore...
weeeee...seems like i learnt new stuff
^.^

fuck my life.!

til ytd
i only realize wat the word [无能为力]
so far..hw to help
how can i help her
when dad tell me tis news
i really dunno hw to do
i tell mum..she oso dunno wat to do
its jus bcoz we all live so far away from her
wat if she really dun cum bk?
am i gonna lost her 4ever?
i really scare...hw cum like tis...
i really wanna fly bk tat time
jus mum say even u fly bk oso take 12 hours..oso cant do nth
at tat time...i really so disappointed
except calling frenz help i dunno wat to do
i must find her bk...
luckily ashley help me..very appreciated wat she done for me
i ask him help me find..he jus say no..wait tmr
wait wat tmr? if wan wait tmr then no nid find her anymore edi
no nid find anymore edi..say wat oso will help me
nw am nt say help me buy thg so easy
is a very serious thg...oso cant..
then no nid la...
still say me wat fatt pei hei..
u dunno tat fucking feeling is hw
me so far matt 7 oso cant do
ask u help me find her is the only way to help her
u oso dunwan
damn fucking disappointed..
wat oso wait tmr then wait i die only help la..
wait la...keep wait then good edi
u say me wat i oso dunwan argue bk
i very fan edi
my dad thr fan..my mum here all worry
me can do matt 7...u wan say wat up to u
i dun care..
i fan until die i oso will gao dim myself
i wont kacau u..wont ask u help edi..
i dunwan wait TOMORO!
really damn fucking moody..who the fuck will understand!
just BLAME N BLAME N BLAME
yes! me no thk ur side! i wat oso no thk!
the only thg i THINK IS TO FIND HER BACK!
i dun thk i do anythg wrong
wan blame...UP TO U..

20 yrs old bday...

tat day wanna blog but..too busy with my new toys...muahaha
early in da morning..wake up...go uni..then wait my lovely mummy come find me in liverpool~
when they arrived..we go eat mcDonald
then shopping lu~~ brother bought me mickey mouse earmuff
sooo cute...



at first i tot mum bought it for tingting..
hahaz..
afta tat..we walk walk see see look look..
at debinghams we both [fatt hao] =.="
go do the fake eyes lashes.
because its over 20pounds so it got free makeup
mum ask me go play .. =.="




half way make up..shayii call me
say happi bday..lolx...hak dou..
then ah loong~ ricky and my baby
damn stupid cant recognise her voice at all
macam [pak gu] voice arh u...hahaz
thankss for wishing me happi bday...^^

wait til tat tingting come
we go taipan eat lu..
then blow cake tat time
my cake is mickey n minnie oso
hahaha...so many mickey tis yr..
happi sei arhxxx
then mum gave me my present...woohoo


da-lang~ iphone 4! happi die me..
muahaha....cant belif mum bought me iphone 4
damn expensive...
i like the iphone 4
but i love my mummy MORE!!
Miiiii.....i LOVE y0u!!!!!!! muackz~!

i hate 11.10

tis early morning..
tot jus wan find her to talk
noe he gt gf by accident
hw can he so fast .. gt a new gf
how can it be
y...everythg u said izit jus say for fun?
wat u still love me
wat u will never leave me alone
izit all jus lies
i damn hurt..tears drop
i hate it so much
i really hate it SO FUCKING MUCH
went to skul..look out from the bus
i jus keep thking all this shit
few times i wanna cry..bt at last i control myself
at class..no mood to learn at all...juz thk thk thk only
cant even concentrate
i ask him..u gt new gf? bt he say no..
wat the fuck is happening?
me jus cry for nth?
he dun even care anymore
he dun care i cry or wat i do anymore
wat he said to me..wat he promised me..from nw i noe is all gone...
why...i hate it i HATE IT
who understand
who will understand!!!!!!!!!!!!
y i brk up wif u...wat is the main point...
I WANNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the feelings is just worst than die
i just hate today. i hate crying!

someone tell my heart.

I try to tell myself that it's really over
That it's just to late for me to go back there
Need to walk away, need to keep my pride, on with my life
Gettin' sick and tired of this situation
Somethin' deep inside just can't seem to face it
I'm not goin' back but somehow I can't say goodbye

Someone needs to tell my heart
Get it to believe that it's over
Tried and tried a thousand times
I'm still here
I can try to walk away but I only seem to end up nowhere
I made up my mind that's the easy part... someone tell my heart

We went through the trials and the tribulations
Til' I finally got tired of all the waiting, for you to come in, tell ya this was it, this I know
I deserve better, than you gave me, I deserve better and it kills me, that i'm holdin' on, I need to be strong, let you go

Someone needs to tell my heart
Get it to believe that it's over
Tried and tried a thousand times
I'm still here
I can try to walk away but I only seem to end up nowhere
I made up my mind that's the easy part..someone tell my heart

Someone tell my heart, I don't love you if I can't convince myself, I just don't know what i'm gonna do, what i'm gonna do

why..and why?

u ask me tis kind of question
u feel better?
shong ma?
do u noe..u ask me
i will hurt onot? u noe onot?
hw can u ask me tat fucking question
i edi very moody today
morning gv police saman
then u nw ask me tat fucking question
u noe when i saw ur msg
my heart so hurt..
不要再说那些话来刺痛我的心
我的心已经碎了还要刺吗？
你已经可以很开心的生活了
为什么还要来弄痛我
我已经很努力不去想你

体会到
要忘记一个人好难...

也学会
要流泪时都望向45度看天
这样眼泪就停留在我眼睛里
不会哭
也不会被人看到我哭...

its fucking hurts

a week afta i brk up wif him
still hurting
even thou i noe its not worth bt .. human..
especially girls tat put too much love on a man

moody for the whole week..
haihz...

saw his album
really having fun without me
u tot me tat u are nt happy
bt Your lie has broken my heart

dunno whether is my problem or wat
saw one of ur pic is damn close wif her..
am i still jealous? mayb
hope i can let it go as soon as possible instead of thking it every fucking day
really cant stand it anymore with the pain i had
feel tired..
the feel that i having now

ITS FUCKING HURT

finally...

left 2 hours til check in
dunno y
i really dun feel excited
mayb sick ...
or mayb i still worrying my mum

haihz..
whole nite no slp
watch movie oso watch 4 hours
then gaming
then eat
then go [long gai]
=.=" time pass like tis

very dizzy..
feel like wan vomit
=.="

mummy...take good good care!!!!!!!!
i will miss u like HELL
n oso ting ting
haihz..soo emm sheh dak..

mummy i love u!!!
T____________T

4 days left!

wuuuuhooo
4 days
say fast .. is very slow
say slow .. is VERY FAST

wah..so fast can go back jor
happy happy..
bt..oso many thing fan
no money! T_T haihz
sei mou~

today sport day
wah..boring dou~ sei jor
jess say my hair SUDDENLY so long =.="
y will suddenly...hahahaz
i no use hair extention oso
herm...lolxx

come bk hm
ting ting come a...
so miss her!!! muackzzz...hahaz

erm..go back tat time..
still nid to settle 1 thing
oso dunno how to do
haihz..FAN

LISTEN TO WEDDING DRESS WHOLE DAY!!!!!!!!!!
nice! lolxx

wedding dress

i cant stop listening to tis song
watching tis mv
gt feel

nice..
he is so handsome..so cool...
jus lose jay chou abit bit..
fav part...playing piano..singing in church
herm...

dunno y
i cant stop listening to it
ah bear said..tis song singing his feeling
feel so sad...
i noe..sorry...
mayb bcoz of tis
i gt the same feeling as well

cough n flu nt yet recover
n am going bk soon
WTF =.="
i dunwan go back still sick
then say tis cannot eat..tat cannot eat
ish..tat time i sure cry sei...
FASTER recover LA!!!! yor.. T__T

感动的故事

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNa3DZBYkb0

刚看完这个故事
好感人..得空去看..

原来人的生命是那么的脆弱
仅仅在一个月的时间内
就把她带走...真忍心

里面有一句话
男朋友问她说: 你每天在房间做什么
她很自然的答: 活着

很深的一句话
非常有意思..

人活着
就是最好的奇迹
活着每天都是幸福的..
我希望我能把这句话记好好
那么..我就是幸福的人...

dying...

cough + flu
make me so STEAM
my nose like open paip
dunno stop...walau
faint

shan fu dou ar...
oso dunno how to die
T_T
so charm arhxx!!!!!!!!!!!!

faint..haihz

y nid many things happen
y human cannot be more simple
jus y y y..

dunno..so fan
ah bear...sry..
i didnt meant to hurt u..
bt..tats my feelings
cant hide it..
sorry..

n..my phone like .. .. .. ... .......
SILENT!!!!
=.=" i tot it sot jor..
keep off n on off n on..crazy?? =.='
aikz..watever...

btw..gt a confirmation letters from Liverpool John Moores University
^^ accepted!
mummy so happy...she happier than me =.="
i love the feel when she hugs me..
nice...
mayb coz her perfume? lolx.. =.=""

aikz..hope to settle everything when i go back laa
dunwan like tis edi...so fan arrr!!
dunno wat am living for..urh~ SIENZ!

got meaning ..

我们永远都不可能找到你爱他，但同时他同样那么爱你的一个人。两个人相处，当中永远都有一个爱得比对方更投入，但爱得比较少那个当他想多爱一些的时候，他才发现，原来多爱一点的那个，早已经放手.

got meaning
有意思！
好有意思！

不要说我不珍惜
是我珍惜的时候
你不觉得什么
当你知道时
可能我已经累了..

prom NiteZ..

so fast..then finish 2nd year of A level
tonite was amazing
seeing ppl dancing around..having fun
lolx
bt when i see chris n her gf..dunno wat name..
gt the best couple award
i feel like.. [herm...hw to say]
jus some weird feeling
afta tat...they all dancing drinking biiblaabiiblaa
i jus sat thr wif jess doing NTH =.="
drink carlsberg only whole nite..arr
cant wait to go back...so i can REALLY HAVE FUN..
lolx
very tired de..bt feel like wanna blogging
today .. 1st day he no msg me
mayb he edi gv up le ba
erm..nt a bad thing i think~
gv me time to zap guan harh..
i oso no feel very very disappointed when he no msg me
coz i noe 1 day he sure will gv up..
mayb best for both of us
sumtimes nite time will think of him..
bt oso will sad coz of wat he said
haihz..suin ba la..
i noe in ur heart am nt WHO WHO anymore
so..i oso no nid waste time..thinking lebih things.
..finish? lolx..

e..r..m..

so fan
too many thing happened
wan faint jor
family problems oso make until me wan die jor
still wan think about my exam
oso wan to think about u ..
y tis month so many thing happen 1..
not gd thing..ALL IS BAD THING

u say me very cow
yes
I AM
u nt 1st day noe me
i always is so cow..nt nw only cow
say i dunwan listen to ppl
if gt point
i sure listen
u say they say me is got point
if got point
y i can fight back? why??
frenz then cannot scold
then gf can scold
got like tis 1 meh
gf say geh thing then is no point
ppl say de thing then gt point
like tat 1 ar? i nw only noe
i wan bf is to protect me
if u nt protect me
then y nid to be together
say u love me..bt wat u do u show me u nt
i noe i cant compare wif frenz
bcoz both are important
bt i oso wont say straight away
[ if gv me choose i choose frenz..coz U CANT HELP ME ]
wah..like tat
i got problem u can help me?
my car sei fo i tell u u can come help me? no
i no money i tell u..u can help me? no
then? i say like tis to u la?
i last yr go back twice my bank edi no money edi
u gt think? u dun hv
buy tis buy tat for wat
JUS WAN U HAPPY only
then? hw u treat me? scold me tis n tat
u n tat girl pic
i sad a..u say me wat? wah... me think too much
my problem again.. i gt say wat? i sad still kena u diu
me do like tat is for wat...jus for u only
then nw? i can tahan..ok..i tahan
until i cannot tahan..i wan boom
then say me dunno think..wat oso is me
i tell her..bcoz she noe me so long
she understand me..i tell u..u wat oso say is me thinking too much
if me do like u
hw u feel..try to think la..
everytime got thing jus is my problem
i small gas..i dunno think...or i think too much
if i nt love u..y i think so much..y i small gas
ya..jus say is me bad..say me bitch
i dun care.. u wan wait..u slowly wait
once i sei sum.. i very 绝
wan blame on me jus blame on me..
i dun care anymore..
as u say
FRENZ are more important
i learnt from u
my frenz are MORE IMPORTANT..

wat we wan..

i wan freedom
u wan control

i wan happy
u wan argue

i wan discuss
u wan avoid

like..wat we wan jus the opposite thing
feel like so weird
compare to last time
we are same
bt the longer we together
more different thing we can see on each other

all the time
u jus let me feel ur frenz are much more important than me
well..and u already say to me
tats true.. ur frenz are important
when u alone
only find me..tats the thing
am nt ur doll or toys or watever
only rmb me when u are lonely
when u gt frenz around u..
u jus leave me alone...
ask me wait u back hm..
fair? - no

everytime is u make the problem
and u can SAY until is my problem
say is me wrong
ya..i noe u clever
tats y everytime u can jus blame on me
n me jus gv u blame..
coz i dunno fight back

nw i learn hw to protect myself
i noe u lie me many times..
many thing i noe i dunwan tell
jus wish u could tell me the truth
bt who noe? u still wan lie
afta lie still can say many 大道理
lie then is lie.. still say so many tis n tat oso no use
make until u no wrong
wrong is me again
i feel so sienz..

2 years.. not say wan put down then put down
bt u really make me so disappointed
nt 1 time.. is many time
wat u tell me oso TALK only..wont tk action
1 time..2 times.. more n more
i oso 麻木...

i dunno wat u wan from me
i gave wat i can gv..
bt u jus ignore..
then nw..u only will care
got meaning?
always tell me wan cherish
i got ar...but u leh?
got meh? i care u tat time u say NTH NTH
i will gao dim
nw i dunwan care u..u only wan me care u back
i call u tat time.. u say NTH TO SAY
nw i dunwan call u..u say y no call u
dun feel urself very 矛盾 meh
even when i angry a.. u still got mood find other ppl chat
i unhappy a.. u still wan play ur bsb bt not accompany me
u wan me accompany u.. then i dunwan slp go on9
on9 jor u tell me wat? frenz call u yamchar..u wan go out
like tat? like tis then right a???
i hate u gv me this feel
boring only find me
am nt ur fucking DOLL!!

f-a-n?

everyday msg me saying u luv me miss me tis n tat
when i look at it
no feel at all
dunno y

jus feel dou very fan
few months b4
we keep argue til nw
i sienz jor
i repeat n repeat again
u oso never listen..

everytime is not my problem
u can say until is my problem
blame on me
i try to it clear
u just try to talk others topic
avoid me..

u say u never lie me b4
sry.. i noe u DID
jus dunwan say only
gv u many chances to tell me
but u choose keep lie to me..i gt nth to say

b4 i say wan to be wif u
i said i never wan be to controlled by ANYBODY
seems like u forgot
i noe tis is CARING
but sry.. i gt my own life
never wanted to listen to u

i tell my best frenz about my prob
then u go ask her
still wan lie to me
I NOE SHE WILL NEVER LIE TO ME
from tat day
i dun feel like i can trust u

ytd i say we are nt suitable
dunno whether u act or wat
crying thr or wat
bt on the other side
still gt mood find other ppl chat
ha.. acting very gd..
u say gv u last chance
i already gv u SO MANY CHANCES

haihz
oii ashley yap..tolong arh!!!

aGain!

is da same fucking things again
am nt gonna reply u coz am too lazy
lazy to talk bullshit again n again

dunwan see
dunwan listen
dunwan know anymore

i jus noe i nid to take care of me mum
n do my best on my exam

tis is wat i CARE

i say go back only decided
means dunwan talk now
u wan to talk...u can continue
i will not answer
dun ask me all those question
u no brain? u cant think?
gt problem then keep ask me
am nt the PROBLEM
so I DUNNO
wat u expect me to tell u??
say i dunno cannot
aikz..go die better la...
i dunwan talk ANYMORE

listen. I SAY...

FUCK YOU! bitch!!
is u tis sohai ruins all da things
still wan act charm there a
who will ho lin u
so damn stupid n brainless
talk oso dunno use brain think
make me damn 7 dulan
if nt bcoz u OLD
early early i oso diu 7 u edi
if nt gv face mummy
i oso slap u edi
u tis bitch
always do wrong thing still wan act like very clever
u go DIE la u
i hate u until dunno hw to say
i really wan u die...
lucily ting ting here
ting ting can hug hug me..

i really hate u
listen wat i say

i say FUCK 9 YOU ma zibai !!!!!

human

u noe wat is human?

human = 凡人 = ‘烦人’

correct la
human always so mafan
think tis think tat
settle tis settle tat

haihz
so boring

i jus wan my life to be simply
oso very hard

wat can do?
who noe?
nobody nobody..nobody nobody~~ =.=""

n i was like omg~am so in luv
but dun really feel am in luv nw
confusing~~~

i noe u care me..
but plz..do not control me

as sum1 said
nt even marry u edi starting to control me
make me feel so scary...
am nt tat type of person
who will let u control easily..
nt even my parents..

so..if u try to do tat again
i will say
f.u.c.k. - o.f.f. !

yes . no . i dunno .

suddenly feel like wanna blogging..
so long no blog jor~

so stress
coursework deadline nx week
oh my fucking GOD =.=" haihz
not finish yet..wait die

already told u many times
y u still dun understand
wondering izit i go clubbing is a big problem
=.="
y must argue bcoz of [clubbing]
i oso dunno
i dunno how to explain to u anymore
feel like wasting time repeating same thing again n again

nt tat i dunwan talk to u
i really nth to talk
coz u kip repeat the same fucking thing over n over
am kinda bored to answer u..
+ am BuSy doing coursework
i no time [on wai] u
[many thing i cant do nw coz am nt beside u]
i noe... then jus wait me go back only decide la
talk nw got wat use?? =.=" aikz
am gonna b00m jor...

u noe wat i talking?

yes .
no .
i dunno .
=.=""

halo..

long time no update...
lolx

today
monday
mummy no work
but
RAINING
=.="
grrr...nvm
we going chester oso
muahahahaz...

tat sei ah bear
everytime talk ar
sure talk clubbing
make me damn body ichy
ishh..

wan go MIST club
wan go SPACE
wan go here wan go there

no go taiwan
i knew it...
so...not gonna ask them go ANYWHERE AGAIN!
fuck them la...

go wif daddy better
at least daddy wont lie me..
^.^
ohhh ohhh daddy i luf u...hahaz

oii ashley yap
wait me go back play until CHI SIN la!!
come on baby...prepare to DIE....lolx

sick..ill...DIE

cough + flu = ?
die!

everytime i cough sure very hard to recover
so shit!!

ah-ha~
tuesday going manC wif jess
photo shoot woooo
nervous lor=.=

dunno wat i should wear oso
ali la li la

suddenly feel like..
i need single life...
should i? aikz
FAN ar!!!

wooow..

damn...
jus nw watch 老公万岁
michael miu act back 孝哥
damn
i luv 孝哥 so damn much
so damn yao yeng larhh!!!!!
*faint*
wuulala~~




wah
very YENG arh!!!!!!!!!!!

[ miimii i luv u!! ]

today went to Liverpool John Moores University with my lovely MUMMY!
thanks you very much
wake up in da very very early early morning
7...urh...very tired...

get up go toilet brush teeth teeth then wash face
afta go in mummy room call miimii wake up lor
me : mii~wake up loh~
mii : *look at clock* U NOW ONLY CALL ME WAKE UP AR...NO NID GV ME TIME BRUSH TEETH LOR?! STUPID!!

i was like..HAR? 7.15AM we 8am go out still not enuf time meh??
i oso blur blur coz jus woke up
then uncle james said..ONLY 7.30am laa now..
wat 8.30 =.=""
apa laa...putih putih gv her scold
soo lii yee jus laugh at me..=.=
very funny
mummy tot it was 8.30am jor..then say sorry sorry to me
hahaz..muackzz!!

then we go out at 8+ lu
reach University tat time
course talk
walau eh..me n mummy sit at belakang




nearly fall asleep =.="
then .. walk around listen tis n tat

afta finish
we went to Liverpool Town shopping for awhile
herm...nth much
bk hm..
he sms me
i very tired so i called him
but when i called him
he say nth to talk
make me damn dulan
Nothing Talk then dunwan talk
i jus End call..ma de o0o!

went to slp..
9pm only wake up
nw..waiting to slp again~

tired

very tired
neck very pain now

actually today shop not very busy
but mayb only am the one answering the phone
make me so .. busy =.="

my black circle eye very geng
panda luii
aikz

realize wan to be a leng luii is not easy
y those girls so leng?
bcoz all cover up WITH make up

my smile is my make up..^^

how

i macam every part of my body oso pain

headache
hand get hurted
stomach ache
ASS oso rosak =.="

wats wrong wif me??!!!
aikz
feel so tired
but dunno y still sitting infront of my laptop
dunwan go slp
wat i wanna do?????
haihzzzzz

meet me in da h0tel r00m~

swear to god

go back no clubbing until sii fatt rosak
oso dunwan cum back!!!!!

shake shake shake that AsS on ME!!!

shake until my ass rosak!!!

fuck!

damn damn damn!!!
already 5 months no clubbing edi
my sii fatt oso fatt mou jor~ =.="

really wanna go back
wan go clubbing arh!!
wan clubbing until chi sin arh!!!
urh =.="
talk shit...

chat wif ah bear about clubbing things
make me damn body ichy..nia ma

afta tat i bring ting ting go town
circus shows
OkOk laa..
those british clap so damn loud
PROUD of Chinese! lolx
chi ma gan...

aikz..
so sienz
which DJ wan come UK open CLUB?
i SPONSER!!!!!!! if really malaysia DJ come over here
i think every week oso go!!!
[dreaming laaa]

over~

so fast
cny habis
no feel at all
hurf.....

only 4 ang pao!!!
wtf!
i nid MONEY laaaa!
nia ma


today best frenz bday
happy bday to her la
big edi la
think abit mature la

lolx!
same age wif me say until me like mature
DAMN IT
i wan celebrate my 21st in Malaysia!!!
ta ma de

i wan happy!
wan money!
wan drunk!!!

wan go mist club
wan go poppy!!!
my frenz who are clubbers
WAIT me
coming back coming back!!!
arh!! so damn long no clubbing wan die edi
urh~~ T_T

web-cam.

today i wear lens
go ethic class tat time teacher look at my eyes
her face like
[ err..weird ] =.="

then come back home
online wif him
webcam~~

say i very cute
hahaz..
coz eyes very big
look like doll

but..sry..
my hair jus like
SOH PO~~
kakakakaz..

jus nw go out fetch aunty's husband
got see dou tat dog
very cute eh
i dun dare to touch
i scare later tat dog bite me
lolx..
but its really cute~~

nw
headache
time to SLP arh!!!

PaiN

stomach pain
so damn charm

i dunwan to be a girl
every month oso pain 1 time
yak si lar!!
i wan KU KU!!!
XD

he not well oso
gastric
k0lian ar
call him tat time he jus yi yi ah ah like tat
aikzzz

here pain thr pain
every whr pain pain~~

sibeh-sienz

seems like so long no blogging
actually is nth i can write
=.="

everyday oso same
Boring
...

sumtimes i was wondering
y am here

bcoz??
of..what?
i dunno

dunno wat i like
wat i do when i leave skul
wat job..tis n tat

all this kind of shit
.aikz.

talking about my future wif my mum today
wat if University..not accept me
[ errrr.... ]
speechless..dunno hw to answer her

work? work as wat?
wash plate ar
aikz...so fan
mummy...i dunwan u worry
but..i dunno wat to do..
sorry

arh..so fast..

Chinese New Year Eve
apa buat
buat nth
sit infront laptop doing nth

today very sienzzzz
early in the morning he say he sendiri at home
very sienz so i wake up n on9 wif him
talk talk then suddenly gaduh
very du 9 lan lor me
terus close webcam
kanasai
talk then talk lor
wan gaduh
lan jiao

then
work
not busy..sienz oso

then nw
oso nth to do..aikz...
CNY cannot go back in malaysia really so damn
sAd...T_T

mickey..MICKEY!!

aikz
really so crazy on mickey
i wan everything made from MICKEY!!
u noe
bag
purse
hair clip
anything

when i see other ppl got mickey
i oso wan lor
aikz..
dunno hw to say tat feeling

mickey bag
i will buy u de



mickey suit
i oso will buy u geh!



mickey phone!!
u WAIT me!!!! i will buy!!!

last day skul..!

tmr last day of skul
good de nehx
then wait for holiday...
cny cny no feel at all
sibeh sienz
aikzzz...

wan more ang pao
then can buy more things
especially MICKEY

^^

sick

ytd go manChester tat time
suddenly snows
=.="
then nw
sick jor lor
ma de
headache
fever la..cough la all sekali come visit me
ding!

slp at 5.30
wake up at 9.30
always oso slp 4 hours
nw? wait slp again
but easy oso lar
headache very geng

cny only sick
so damn SHIT lorhx!!!
urh...T_T

fo0d??

today whole day jus like SEARCHING for food =.="

come back from h0me
CarI makan..
nth eat..
at last eat roti

then go manchester wif mummy
oso CarI makan
then eat those not nice geh sushi
yi - yak

jus nw hungry
12.30am
go out tot eat pizza
ALL CLOSE
ma de
NTH to eat at all
tat stupid mcD say 24 hours
when we go in they say CLOSE
wat the FUCK

back hm nw very headache
urh... today bcum hungry ghost all day =.="
kolian~~

another boring day

eaerly in da morning go yam char wif mummy
then come back hm online
web-cam wif him...
herm..see my mickey mouse..
so cute
he said i look very [chan]
=.="
jus bcoz i not enuf slp only laa

then nth to do til nw
very-sienz-lorhx
everyday oso so sienz i wan die lor
jessica go back to HK edi
tmr i seorang at skul
aikz...
thinking back when in SI
go early oso nvm..
go skul kantin duduk talk talk
nw
i rather go late...
sienzzzz

boring day

wake up early tis morning on9 wif daddy...
happy-happy
miss daddy so much
see my grandma oso
^.^.^.^

working working working
nth much
then nw
nth to do
tmr jess go back hK lu
aikz..
hope she happy happy lu..
^.^

nw..go slp..
..............

please~~

sitting here thinking*

no car in malaysia
really..so..umm fong bin
i wan a CAR
well i got 1 in UK but..
in malaysia no car
T_T cry ar

wan go here n thr
oso very mafan

daddy
would u buy me a car~~
Please~~~
coz am being a good girl all the time
XDDDD

checking on internet
Honda City or Accord leh~
yer
jus wish tat daddy say [yeh..ok]
then i fatt datt jor
plz la daddy..i really wan a car in malaysia~~!!!!!

which 1???

which 1 i should buy???
herm..thinking thinking

this is a travel bag
cost me 63pounds
but..i can use for skul bag
or travel bag...
quite nice ar...




OR



This 1??
tis luggage bag can carry as hand luggage
but
only use for travel lor
130pounds for this luggage bag leh

i dunno which 1
i wan both!
but no money
so only can buy 1..>.<

H-E-L-P-!-!-!-!

urh..tired..

tired tired
snowing heavy when i come back from home
luckily back hm early..

then..sms wif him
say wan go taiwan..^^
yeh..i wan go..
buy many things!!

then went to slp at 5.30
wake up at 10
later slp again @.@
pig

tmr wake up early
see can online wif daddy mou sin..

mickey pyjamas X2!!!

tis morning i online webcam wif daddy!!!
so happy..
so bad only online for awhile
coz i gotta go skul jor
really dunwan turn off the webcam
T_T
daddy..i so miss u!

then go skul..blablabla
back hm jor go town wif mii mii
go bank.eat mcD.
afta tat we went to new look
coz i wan see if thr got any new mickey pjyamas!
yehh
gt new 1..


this 1 is buy from NewLook
minnie minnie..nice
then we went to peacock oso
wah..another sweet minnie..buy again



i got many mickey n minnie pyjamas edi lorh!!
luv it!!! i wan MORE!!!

daddy~

lolx
my daddy
very leng zaii

i send him some of my pic ytd wearing lens
showing him my eyes is grey n blue colour
n he jus show me tis
hahaz..
daddy so leng zaiii!!!!

today..
argue wif him
diu until him very 9
mahai..i really dunwan listen to those stupid excuses
wat tis wat tat
dun think am brainless ok?
dun think am stupid
edi say to u many time
u wan slp..ok..go slp
but at least u tell me 1st
dun make me keep waiting for ur msg
say so many thousand time dunno listen
still do like tat

then say me wan argue wif u
if u do then hw can i argue wif u
always say is me
i say FUCK U la..

diu until very 9..

then send me tis pic
say u buy mickey for me
harlo
dun think u buy mickey for me then i no angry lor
u tot me 3 years old izit
1 mickey then i no angry ar
u slowly wait la..
yak si lar
go die lar!!
btw
tis mickey damn cute
i wan it for so long edi..
lolx!

smoke

smoke.
a best way to waste time for me at the moment
i think .-.-.

nth i can do except smoke when am bored

nth can help me
no1 can help me
uk life
i noe..its boring

i wish i can go back to malaysia
nowhere is better than my own house
i can do wat i wan
eat wat i wan
go whr i wan..

in UK?
opposite
s.h.i.t

daddy i miss u
u r the best daddy in the world
even sumtimes u very cow
but afta tat i noe .. u just care me
daddy sorry..
go back gv u a big big kiss ar!!
MuAcKzZ

daddy n mummy i luv u both the most!
no one is better than u 2!

vampire~

do i look like vampire?
yeaaa
i do..lolx

am one of the vampire family member~~
vampire goh
vampire muii~

wearing grey lens is ok but blue is really scary



see
really so scary

successful vampire! kakaz
=.="
sot jor

today whole day damn boring
not feeling well
early in da morning 7.30am
i go showered
VERY COLDDDD

then skul..la li la..
back hm then on9 then .. i forgot

then 7pm i go showered
afta showred lay on mummy bed
wah..really
so comfort
fall asleep
wake up at 10 then eat dinner
afta dinner go find ting ting
oh...i miss ting ting

many things happened recently
mood went up n down
like rollercoster
very syok =.="

nw? time to slp
tmr skul again
i luv ms.chloe chong.
^.^

urh.. dying

fan
so fan
very fan
so damn fan
so damn very fan

ma de
my otak wan b00m jor
noe ma? BooM!!!

life
WHAT IS LIFE?
LIFE : ????
Happy?
Sad?
Enjoy?
Disappointed?
bullshit.-.

today went high street wif jess
get some food
raining..
nice
but am wet.. so cold
then come back home
sick edi lor
leng jor lor .. i enjoy rain.. but not headache

i went to slp 4..wake up 9
nw feel slpy again
tmr assem
yak si yak si laaaa
always assem oso talk bullshit only
dun talk better lar u

dying.-.-.
T_T

aikz

2010
not a good year
for me

damn many unhappy things happened
him
family
n frenz

only jus started 2010
then so many thing happen jor
hw to stay until dec

haihz

i dunno hw to do
hw can teach me
help me?!

i noe HAPPY is difficult
but i will try to HAPPY!
hope tat K2 will employ me
tat time
i only work study slp
not much time to let me think
will be better ba..

i rather use my time to work more than slp
can earn money..

work til 2.30am
come back hm 3am+ terus slp
then morning 8am wake up go skul again
like tis very good..
no time for me to think too much
mayb like tis..
will help me change my attitude

so u all wont say me [think too much]

很彻底

很想知道
是不是只有我一厢情愿的把你当作是好朋友

当你告诉我原因
又说那不是真正的原因
但又不告诉我
原来你根本不当我是朋友

彻底的让我失望！

在我心里7年
所谓的好朋友
原来是这样

这世界真的很虚伪
很假
我不想再说敷衍的话

我不再相信任何人的话

我只相信我家人和我自己就够

在这两个星期里
被一个我自认为的好朋友
狠狠的伤了两次
说什么我自己在那里生气
你有想下你自己用什么态度去解决嘛
说在fb跟我说sry
结果你是跟他们聊什么
叫我要明白你
不告诉我事实我能明白什么

伤口不痛
并不代表它不深

我现在才知道
[好朋友] 是一个代名词
没有作用

只是好看一些
好听一些而已
一点也不特别

你们的一个不开心
叫几十个人陪着你喝茶

我的一个不开心
也只有我自己...说我想太多..说我无聊
没有用心去了解我

我不明白为什么要为你哭
只怪我太笨...
笨得太离谱...

SD dolls!!

today my uncle on9 wif her wife
then she got soooo damn many dolls
all so cute
i wan oso
so i said when tis yr i go back
i wan go thr find her
then i can buy many dolls i wan
since cant go HK
i wan go liao guo..
say to jordan oso edi
so..is 100% comfirm
no more [ CANCEL ]
i hate the word CANCEL
if he cant go oso nvm
i go wif my uncle

da SD dolls
so damn pretty
i wan them all!!!!

.-.-.watever.-.-.

work work work n work
working day as normal
ting ting didnt come afternoon~
tot when i finish work then walk to her
then she cums
so...jus play wif her larr
then one of da driver come back
he suppose to finish at 9 but today got 1 driver car broke down
so mum ask him to do another round
but he jus dunwan
n tell mum fuck off
not a good attitude ?
tis is chinese take away shop ar
not 9am-5pm office leh
hw can u expect to finish on time

so how?

i bcum da drive
=.="
mel mel bcum my personal tom tom
i did well thou
lolx
fast n easy

and now..
nth to do again...~

mother.fucking.bullshit. !!

go to college i tot got assem
who noes it has been cancelled
=.="
make me wake up damn early
so stupid lor

job interview
ok..asked me to introduce myself
yer
intro wat
name.age.whr i live.wat am studying
tat kind of bullshit

well..
tis job dun really suit me i fink
working time is between 7pm - 2.30am
ah..hw can i manage?
no nid slp? no nid go skul..
herm...
thinking thinking
then louis explained to me
ok~he was rite
i should concentrate on study
not MONEY
but...money important too larh!
no money..wat oso cannot do
e.g.
cant buy things (MICKEY!!)
cant go travel (MALAYSIA & HONG KONG)
well...aikz
forget bout it lar
very sienz (jess..if u see my blog u should noe wat tis word mean now..lolx)

i was telling myself not to be upset
coz the HK has been cancelled for sum reason
but..i jus miss the disneyland..
i miss mickey..
T_T

mummy!!!!!!!!!!!!
go wif me!!!!!!
plzzzz~~~~~~~~~

silent

nth to say much today
ting ting not well
go see doctor wif her
..hope she gets well soon..

mood?
okok la..
tmr interview
hope i can get da job
coz i nid money!
so i can go anywhere i like
buy anything i wan

mummy...
will u go HK wif me?
will u???
i wan u go wif me
i only wan u...

interview..

i got a reply from K2
ask me go interview on thurs
ok! nice nice
i nid ur job
i nid money to buy things
tolong larr
employ me...

ytd damn moody
aikz...
life is short
never wan my life bcum so sienz
i wan as happy as i can
as freedom as i can!
i noe is impossible
so..jus keep everything as simple as it can

e.g
eat
slp
on9
smoke

wat a good life..
no ma fan..

sienz!
everything make me so sienz!

italian~~

today go skul late jor
damn those skul car park
dunno park car izit
park until i oso cannot get thru da car park
so damn stupid
make me park outside..

then go in see study cafe
wah
so many ppl...@.@
ohh..take da ID
so damn stupid..so damn ugly
still ask me VISIBLE
sot
u slowly wait la..wait

come back hm
wait ting ting
then we go swimming
so funny
she scare
laugh sei me..
stupid ting ting...XP

then we went to .. er..
dunno whr..wigan guaa
eat italian
soooo full
then go tesco
coz ting ting wan go
very funny
tis afternoon she didnt go to slp
then go tesco she like drunk jor
cannot walk
hahahaz...
i carry her
her head lay on my shoulder
ar..so sweet

then come back hm
nw
i wan
do my
fucking hw
so damn boring
=.="

happy..moody

tis morning go tai pan yamchar wif ting ting
cum bk on9 wif him
at 1st happy de
then jus bcoz of some reason
u emm shong
i jus playing wif u
bt u tk it serious
say is me wan to gaduh
i feel very sienz
am jus playing .. oso cannot
the thing u nid to serious u tell me is ok
the thing u DUN hv to be serious u go serious
i very sienz..
suin la
u always oso say is me tat wan to argue wif u
i have nth to say anymore..
and oso lazy to say anything..
wat u fink then ok la..sienz ar me
lazy to explain to u again..
i really really no mood on u..
so...plz fuck off.!.

untitled

in da morning daddy call me
say sister cut dou hand
go to clinic
quite serious
aikz...her hands sure very pain nw
jahit quite alot...10++
kelian...
can say 3 of us really is siblings =.="
all oso got scar 1..
i got scare on legs coz of motor
bro got scar on hands coz glasses
nw sister oso bcoz glasses
aikz..
careful lahh..

then work
sienz
not busy at all..
at work time...
got 1 customer i call him candyman
coz he gave us many sweet in 08 halloween
from tat time then i call him candyman til nw...
long time le~ when 09 halloween he didnt come
so 1 day he comes to our shop i ask him i WANT sweet
he very good lor..he brings me chocolate...HAHA
love love him...
today he order
then i put down his order name as candyman
hahaz..then bro shout tat time he tickle me
hahahaz...laugh..

he 5am only go hm
very sienz him edi
really really sienz jor
sumtimes i jus wondering its long-distance relationship will work
yes? no?
i dunno..
he told me tat dunwan always open webcam
scare see til sienz
y see frenz wont sienz 1 lar see everyday?
got like tat 1 meh
if see gf everyday then sienz
see frenz see everyday wont sienz?
logic ar? diu...
sienz!!! dunwan mention..go eat shit la

herm...
i like sandy lin song
[ when i lonely would u accompany me? ]
1 of the lyric from her song
luv it...

pain..!

suddenly heart so damn pain
cant breathe
pain ar

dunno wat happen
aikz
sienz ar

mayb me very cold ba
=.=" a good reason..

hand oso cold
feet got wear sock
so not really
cold~

ahlah~
so damn sienz

damn u!

i wonder how u get ur driving licence
ma de
dunno parking izit u
damn u
always 1 car park 2 car space
nia sing ar
got place park oso let u make until no space park edi
really wanna complain u!
if u gv me complain u very dai wok i tell u

i edi rmb u car reg lo
NX02 EJJ
sei jj
diu 9 u arr!!!
park ur space lar
aiyer
very very very dulan u

another car oso like tat
woi
duno parking go hm slp lar
come out for wat
sumore wan BAAA G my parking space
kanasai

chi sin 1...
like tat again
ur car will bcum [ fa min mao ] i tell u
ma de
shit lar u 3!
go die lar
me parking oso very char sui de lar
u 3 still shit than me
go yak si laaaaaaa

du 9 lan arr!

pig pig pig...

went to skul..
kanasai...snow all day..
not big oso...
yak si laaa

come back hm on9..
then talk to him
tat time lay on mummy bed
wah..
so big so nice
so DAMN comfort
make me wan to slp
talk talk then slp jor
wahkakakz..he say me is pig+cow
always very cow...
always very lazy like pig..=.="

slp at 6pm
ask bro wake me up at 7pm
but when he wake me up
i still wan to slp ar
dun fan me sin..
mummy come up..
[WOII!!!! wake up ar u! nite time no nid slp ar??!]

dunwan fan me sinnnn
still slpppp
slp til 9pm
then mummy say TING TING find u arh

har? whr?
finally wake up jor
then go bring ting ting cum over to my house
hahaz..only ting ting can let me wake up..
see la...hw much i luv her...HOHOZZ

then eat nasi lemak..herm
y tat chili sweet 1? @.@

afta tat ting come upstair play
laugh sei me
her pampers falls down
HAHAHAHAHAHA
can see her little sii fatt
laugh until i wan die...

then now..
wan slp jor
tmr bro theory test
hope he can pass la
if not .. waste his money + waste my petrol
XDDDD
=.=" so bored..
chi sin jor me..~~~

ouch~

herm..
so damn danger
drive to skul today
damn slippery
omg
tat car behind me still follow so near
wan bang me meh
wan claim insurance izit
aiyer
diu ar
scare lan dou me
heart oso jump out
all da road damn slippery
still stick me so near
sohai

come back hm
arya
eat rice tat time
my heart
lan a
pain again
pain so many day dunno stop
diu..
go shower tat time
wan vomit...eat jor tat thing got garlic
ARRRRRRRR
tolong!!!!!!!!
busuk sei tat garlic
yer

at nite eat kary mee
not hot
but nice

then now...is time to slp
tmr skul + heart pain
CHAO HAI
pain again i will korek out ar!

err..

today went to town
yiiiyer
road damn slippery
tolong...cant walk~
mummy keep grabbing me
me oso wan fall down jor

shopping buy jor new minnie pyjamas
haha...many Mickey&minnie pyjamas lu~~~
see online
damn
many nice tee
i luv t-shirt arhxxx
wan buy so damn many
i think total is rm180
dunno..ask her wait her reply~~

come back online
herm..
not a happy ending
aikz...suin jor la
dunno hw to say jor..

K mui~
gambateh!
go back ah jie sayang...
^^

muackzz

money money money!!!

i wan money larh
so damn many t-shirt i wan buy
so damn many cute things i wan
SO DAMN MANY MICKEY i wan!!!!!!!

y dunwan employ me jek
aiyer
i wan work ar
i wan money ar
U mother FUCKER~

stupid ..
yak si yak si

whr can find money...
oii...up thr
dun gv me snow
gv me MONEY!!!!

fan fan fan!!

if am in mY nw..
damn good

so i will be able to do many thingSSS
damn it!

if am in mY
ashley no nid so damn fan jus bcoz of da airticket
i can handle for her

if am in mY now
i can renew my DAMN passport which is expired on the date i wan go HK
shit!

if am in mY now
i can bank in the money myself for da t-shirt i wan to buy
diuuuu

all jus bcoz am not in mY
cause so damn many problems
wan do wat oso cannot
chao hai..
ish!

dat passport really make me so damn..
i duno
uncle said i still can book for flight
soo lii yee said cannot
must at least 1 month
diu..die lorh
might go to london renew
but nid to wait til april holiday
tat time..air ticket harga
i pengsan...
but i still wan to go..
i wan see my mickey
i go disneyland
wan go travel wif frenzz..

haihz..
better she buy others ppl air ticket
i dunwan ppl blame on me say wait for me
then the price went up
i buy myself at the end lu..
as long as i can go..everything is alrite for me
aikz
so damn fan...fan sei ngor

aikz..i oso dunno
jus wan go travel only
oso wan so many problem
if got problem again
i go BANG tat air asia company..!
diu 9 u!
choose u as our flight u dun gv us problem laa!
if not i boom 7 u arh!
ding! arh!!!!!!
sot 9 jor la me...

hope it will snow again!
so i dun hafta go to skul
wahahaha...
plzzz...praying**
snow snow snow~~~

freezing!

damn freezing outside
road damn slippy
very very hard to drive
even HARD to WALK
walk oso will pokai
uncle simon said tmr might be snow again
yes yes yes
then i dun hafta go to skul
XDDD

today..
erm..
mood ok larhxx...
not so moody le
coz ting ting here
hoho..
she is so CUTE
when she say da barney song
[ i love u~ u love me~ we r happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to u..
want u say u love me too...]

she come n hug n kiss me lehh!
so cute larhxx...
then she play my piano..
sing sing suddenly come to kiss me again
hahahaz...i very l0ve her!!!
she is my baby...kakaz

headache whole day..
damn..dunno izit always late slp
aikz..but when ting ting kiss me
then no pain jor..magic~~wahkakaz
hoping friday no skul as well

if they re-open
i wont go anyway...
its too DANGER for me go drive
n am not going to RISK MY LIFE jus for few lessons
haa...
ting..jie jie love u arhx...~~

snow snow arhxxx

ytd midnite edi snow very heavy
snow snow snow dunno stop
wahhhaaa
very good lor
edi plan not to go skul today de
who so stupid snow so heavy still wan go
not me lor...malaysia style...^^
early morning skul text mummy
we no nid go skul bcoz is really dangerous
good wa..not me ponteng lor tis time
is college close..sumore tmr oso close
if thursday close i wont go friday oso

very cold..
road very slippy..

tis few days
heart very pain..
not those sad de heart pain..
is real pain... i took medicine oso no use
mayb no rest dou...
must rest more liao..if nt.. later die jor i cannot go hk..
i wan go..!

kuan..thx u fer caring me leh
u are the 1st person who care me once da problem happen
u oso promised me that if i got anything
u oso will care me de...wont leave me alone
yeah..^^ wait u do tis hah..

thx bek bek yap oso..
although she talks all oso i noe de
but leh..still thx...

thx sha yii n ricky..
gving me advice stuff like tat
hope sha yii gets well soon

thx mummy !!
mummy not saying anything
but i noe she ask me go out jus to let me relax my feelings
rather than just stay at hm facing laptop
mii mii i L0Ve u!! the most!!!

da lang~da lang~da lang~~~ pink panther song..
herm...nice~ kakazz

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dunno wat title wan to put
so jus - blank -

finally i go to slp at 7pm ytd
damn tired
but .. i heard my phone got msg
is him..
i woke up at 3am
his msg say..
i scold her...
I WHERE GOT
i didnt scold her at all!
afta reply his msg
cant slp
stay up .. online awhile
5am..headache very bad
go back to slp
8am wake up again
me like tis very rosak lor my body
wake up check phone he didnt reply
i get ready to skul
saw ashley ask me..
who is tat girl
i knew she saw tat pic
she go ask him...
even a frenz..see edi oso will ask
lagi dun say am ur girl lor
aikz...damn sakit

ready to go skul
mother fucker ar
my car all is ICE
use water oso cannot
walau...took me long time lorhxxx
cold dou sei
-6 lehxx...TMD

go til skul
no heart listen wat teacher talking
all bullshit bullshit
dun kacau me
back hm
online
sha yii call
say she car accident
hope she gets well soon arr

on9 at nite
i cryyyyy so damn long
nearly 1 hours
my eyes damn red
like monster
i cannot stop crying
all the thing he said
just make me...aikz...
i really so sum tong

sumtimes..not i wan argue
if i argue sure got sth wrong geh
dun keep say until me like to gaduh
i dun like...WHO LIKE???

one of the thing..
tin shing is more important than me
u finally admit tis
the reason for tis is
i cannot help u
yes...i really cannot
am useless
but when i nid help.can u?
not i wan to compare..
jus saying the truth
u cannot help me doesn't mean tat u r not important in my heart u noe?
u dunno...
aikz..
i oso dunno jor...
felt like...
everytime oso my fault...very lazy to talk wif u..
go shower better.......

不开心

我整晚没睡
想说等你比赛完和我谈下天
可惜没有
你自己跑去睡了
我还在等

等了好久
都没回复我
我也猜到你睡着了

很无聊
在网上游荡
想想下也很久没去你profile了
按了进去
看了不该看到的照片
我仔细的看每一张照片
有她的..她都牵得你好紧
我看了心里不爽
再来
只有你和她的
也贴很近
可是下面却写着
[ my boyfriend ]
我的心就被刺了好多好多下
一直重复的看
看了又看...看了再看
心里真的很不舒服
为什么
我才是你女朋友啊...这句话也只有我能说啊
为什么会是他说
越想越难过
发信息问你...你应该还在睡
回我说是玩玩的
你知道一直以来
我对这些事从来就不玩
我的心好痛
为什么一个别的女生
说你是他男朋友
我不能忍受..我忍不到
即使是玩的我也不允许...这些你都应该很了解

反过来
你说我想那么多做什么
我有想多吗？是他做多了吧
到最后也是我的错
我真的很想知道
在你的立场
男女朋友是这样的吗

我跟好一点的男生谈话
你告诉我你吃醋
那为什么我就不能吃醋
我的眼泪
一颗一颗的流
一直再流
你说
现在有人不要你吗
有人抛弃你吗

我心里想说
不是因为你要离开我
我才会哭的...
我重视我们的感情
我不能忍受那样

可是我那时哭得眼睛很模糊了
看不清楚自己在写什么了
也没力了

对
我错了
我不对了
也就这样...你去睡了
留我在那里无声痛哭...
眼睛很红了
心也很痛了

最后的我
还是不明白
我错了嘛?

not a happy day...

a conversation wif aunt
she said tat...her baby is getting very naughty nowadays
dunwan let her come to me
jus bcoz when she comes then dunwan go home
dunwan her mum
all this just bullshit lar honestly
but tis
remind me...of my childhood

*shit*

when my mum left us
i hate her to be honest
and she knows tat i hate her
i scold her at phone
never wan to see her
never wan to talk to her
tat time i was only 9-10 years old

i dunno ANYthing
dunno wats going on between mum n dad
dad told me
mum dunwan u edi

for a 9 years old girl
how can she live after tat
thats wat on my mind tat time
i nid my mum
i nid her...but shes gone
far away...

by the time i get older
i listen to both side
mum told me tat...it was dad
but dad told me tat..it was mum
so i decided not to listen..=.="

i noe mum was telling the truth
dad too...but it just hard to say anything
or do anything just bcoz
am a child

afta all this shit happened
i choose to forgive my mummy
i start to talk to her...go out wif her
even...i miss her
but dad dislike larhx...

she always is my mummy
tis is da fact
never change...
NEVER..nobody can change...
no matter how
mum is mum
how can u say dunwan ur mum
i really very very disagree bout wat she said

even shes only a baby
but when she gets older
she wont be like tat
she will always stick wif her mum
coz ... u always her mum
ok..clean all that bullshit tat is in ur mind

dun think ur child is rubbish
think their are the BEST child ever in the world
OK mou?
aikz...

so damn moody..
kanasai
grrrrr!!!!!!! =.="

yearhhh..T_T

today 1/1/2010
last year so fast passed jor wa...
aikz...
but oso ok larhxx
quite looking forward to tis yr

why?!?!

coz we going to HK!
yehhh
disneyland disneyland...
i coming coming to see u mickey mousee
muackz muackz
lolxx..

cant wait til aug
wuulala
i noe time pass very fast geh lar
sekejap can see my dar bii n frenz n familyyy
yo yo yo...tunngu me arhxxx

today work..
ish..damn quite
whr u all guai lou go..
no nid eat 1 mehx...CALL IN LA iiiyerr

sit thr dunno do wat ar me
sienz dou sei...
wulala~~~

tomoro sat..
work oso nehx..
wan money wan work
wan buy a lot of thingss
no money will mati...

tis new year...
S-I-E-N-Z arhx..!