daddy~

lolx
my daddy
very leng zaii

i send him some of my pic ytd wearing lens
showing him my eyes is grey n blue colour
n he jus show me tis
hahaz..
daddy so leng zaiii!!!!

today..
argue wif him
diu until him very 9
mahai..i really dunwan listen to those stupid excuses
wat tis wat tat
dun think am brainless ok?
dun think am stupid
edi say to u many time
u wan slp..ok..go slp
but at least u tell me 1st
dun make me keep waiting for ur msg
say so many thousand time dunno listen
still do like tat

then say me wan argue wif u
if u do then hw can i argue wif u
always say is me
i say FUCK U la..

diu until very 9..

then send me tis pic
say u buy mickey for me
harlo
dun think u buy mickey for me then i no angry lor
u tot me 3 years old izit
1 mickey then i no angry ar
u slowly wait la..
yak si lar
go die lar!!
btw
tis mickey damn cute
i wan it for so long edi..
lolx!

smoke

smoke.
a best way to waste time for me at the moment
i think .-.-.

nth i can do except smoke when am bored

nth can help me
no1 can help me
uk life
i noe..its boring

i wish i can go back to malaysia
nowhere is better than my own house
i can do wat i wan
eat wat i wan
go whr i wan..

in UK?
opposite
s.h.i.t

daddy i miss u
u r the best daddy in the world
even sumtimes u very cow
but afta tat i noe .. u just care me
daddy sorry..
go back gv u a big big kiss ar!!
MuAcKzZ

daddy n mummy i luv u both the most!
no one is better than u 2!

vampire~

do i look like vampire?
yeaaa
i do..lolx

am one of the vampire family member~~
vampire goh
vampire muii~

wearing grey lens is ok but blue is really scary



see
really so scary

successful vampire! kakaz
=.="
sot jor

today whole day damn boring
not feeling well
early in da morning 7.30am
i go showered
VERY COLDDDD

then skul..la li la..
back hm then on9 then .. i forgot

then 7pm i go showered
afta showred lay on mummy bed
wah..really
so comfort
fall asleep
wake up at 10 then eat dinner
afta dinner go find ting ting
oh...i miss ting ting

many things happened recently
mood went up n down
like rollercoster
very syok =.="

nw? time to slp
tmr skul again
i luv ms.chloe chong.
^.^

urh.. dying

fan
so fan
very fan
so damn fan
so damn very fan

ma de
my otak wan b00m jor
noe ma? BooM!!!

life
WHAT IS LIFE?
LIFE : ????
Happy?
Sad?
Enjoy?
Disappointed?
bullshit.-.

today went high street wif jess
get some food
raining..
nice
but am wet.. so cold
then come back home
sick edi lor
leng jor lor .. i enjoy rain.. but not headache

i went to slp 4..wake up 9
nw feel slpy again
tmr assem
yak si yak si laaaa
always assem oso talk bullshit only
dun talk better lar u

dying.-.-.
T_T

aikz

2010
not a good year
for me

damn many unhappy things happened
him
family
n frenz

only jus started 2010
then so many thing happen jor
hw to stay until dec

haihz

i dunno hw to do
hw can teach me
help me?!

i noe HAPPY is difficult
but i will try to HAPPY!
hope tat K2 will employ me
tat time
i only work study slp
not much time to let me think
will be better ba..

i rather use my time to work more than slp
can earn money..

work til 2.30am
come back hm 3am+ terus slp
then morning 8am wake up go skul again
like tis very good..
no time for me to think too much
mayb like tis..
will help me change my attitude

so u all wont say me [think too much]

很彻底

很想知道
是不是只有我一厢情愿的把你当作是好朋友

当你告诉我原因
又说那不是真正的原因
但又不告诉我
原来你根本不当我是朋友

彻底的让我失望！

在我心里7年
所谓的好朋友
原来是这样

这世界真的很虚伪
很假
我不想再说敷衍的话

我不再相信任何人的话

我只相信我家人和我自己就够

在这两个星期里
被一个我自认为的好朋友
狠狠的伤了两次
说什么我自己在那里生气
你有想下你自己用什么态度去解决嘛
说在fb跟我说sry
结果你是跟他们聊什么
叫我要明白你
不告诉我事实我能明白什么

伤口不痛
并不代表它不深

我现在才知道
[好朋友] 是一个代名词
没有作用

只是好看一些
好听一些而已
一点也不特别

你们的一个不开心
叫几十个人陪着你喝茶

我的一个不开心
也只有我自己...说我想太多..说我无聊
没有用心去了解我

我不明白为什么要为你哭
只怪我太笨...
笨得太离谱...

SD dolls!!

today my uncle on9 wif her wife
then she got soooo damn many dolls
all so cute
i wan oso
so i said when tis yr i go back
i wan go thr find her
then i can buy many dolls i wan
since cant go HK
i wan go liao guo..
say to jordan oso edi
so..is 100% comfirm
no more [ CANCEL ]
i hate the word CANCEL
if he cant go oso nvm
i go wif my uncle

da SD dolls
so damn pretty
i wan them all!!!!

.-.-.watever.-.-.

work work work n work
working day as normal
ting ting didnt come afternoon~
tot when i finish work then walk to her
then she cums
so...jus play wif her larr
then one of da driver come back
he suppose to finish at 9 but today got 1 driver car broke down
so mum ask him to do another round
but he jus dunwan
n tell mum fuck off
not a good attitude ?
tis is chinese take away shop ar
not 9am-5pm office leh
hw can u expect to finish on time

so how?

i bcum da drive
=.="
mel mel bcum my personal tom tom
i did well thou
lolx
fast n easy

and now..
nth to do again...~

mother.fucking.bullshit. !!

go to college i tot got assem
who noes it has been cancelled
=.="
make me wake up damn early
so stupid lor

job interview
ok..asked me to introduce myself
yer
intro wat
name.age.whr i live.wat am studying
tat kind of bullshit

well..
tis job dun really suit me i fink
working time is between 7pm - 2.30am
ah..hw can i manage?
no nid slp? no nid go skul..
herm...
thinking thinking
then louis explained to me
ok~he was rite
i should concentrate on study
not MONEY
but...money important too larh!
no money..wat oso cannot do
e.g.
cant buy things (MICKEY!!)
cant go travel (MALAYSIA & HONG KONG)
well...aikz
forget bout it lar
very sienz (jess..if u see my blog u should noe wat tis word mean now..lolx)

i was telling myself not to be upset
coz the HK has been cancelled for sum reason
but..i jus miss the disneyland..
i miss mickey..
T_T

mummy!!!!!!!!!!!!
go wif me!!!!!!
plzzzz~~~~~~~~~

silent

nth to say much today
ting ting not well
go see doctor wif her
..hope she gets well soon..

mood?
okok la..
tmr interview
hope i can get da job
coz i nid money!
so i can go anywhere i like
buy anything i wan

mummy...
will u go HK wif me?
will u???
i wan u go wif me
i only wan u...

interview..

i got a reply from K2
ask me go interview on thurs
ok! nice nice
i nid ur job
i nid money to buy things
tolong larr
employ me...

ytd damn moody
aikz...
life is short
never wan my life bcum so sienz
i wan as happy as i can
as freedom as i can!
i noe is impossible
so..jus keep everything as simple as it can

e.g
eat
slp
on9
smoke

wat a good life..
no ma fan..

sienz!
everything make me so sienz!

italian~~

today go skul late jor
damn those skul car park
dunno park car izit
park until i oso cannot get thru da car park
so damn stupid
make me park outside..

then go in see study cafe
wah
so many ppl...@.@
ohh..take da ID
so damn stupid..so damn ugly
still ask me VISIBLE
sot
u slowly wait la..wait

come back hm
wait ting ting
then we go swimming
so funny
she scare
laugh sei me..
stupid ting ting...XP

then we went to .. er..
dunno whr..wigan guaa
eat italian
soooo full
then go tesco
coz ting ting wan go
very funny
tis afternoon she didnt go to slp
then go tesco she like drunk jor
cannot walk
hahahaz...
i carry her
her head lay on my shoulder
ar..so sweet

then come back hm
nw
i wan
do my
fucking hw
so damn boring
=.="

happy..moody

tis morning go tai pan yamchar wif ting ting
cum bk on9 wif him
at 1st happy de
then jus bcoz of some reason
u emm shong
i jus playing wif u
bt u tk it serious
say is me wan to gaduh
i feel very sienz
am jus playing .. oso cannot
the thing u nid to serious u tell me is ok
the thing u DUN hv to be serious u go serious
i very sienz..
suin la
u always oso say is me tat wan to argue wif u
i have nth to say anymore..
and oso lazy to say anything..
wat u fink then ok la..sienz ar me
lazy to explain to u again..
i really really no mood on u..
so...plz fuck off.!.

untitled

in da morning daddy call me
say sister cut dou hand
go to clinic
quite serious
aikz...her hands sure very pain nw
jahit quite alot...10++
kelian...
can say 3 of us really is siblings =.="
all oso got scar 1..
i got scare on legs coz of motor
bro got scar on hands coz glasses
nw sister oso bcoz glasses
aikz..
careful lahh..

then work
sienz
not busy at all..
at work time...
got 1 customer i call him candyman
coz he gave us many sweet in 08 halloween
from tat time then i call him candyman til nw...
long time le~ when 09 halloween he didnt come
so 1 day he comes to our shop i ask him i WANT sweet
he very good lor..he brings me chocolate...HAHA
love love him...
today he order
then i put down his order name as candyman
hahaz..then bro shout tat time he tickle me
hahahaz...laugh..

he 5am only go hm
very sienz him edi
really really sienz jor
sumtimes i jus wondering its long-distance relationship will work
yes? no?
i dunno..
he told me tat dunwan always open webcam
scare see til sienz
y see frenz wont sienz 1 lar see everyday?
got like tat 1 meh
if see gf everyday then sienz
see frenz see everyday wont sienz?
logic ar? diu...
sienz!!! dunwan mention..go eat shit la

herm...
i like sandy lin song
[ when i lonely would u accompany me? ]
1 of the lyric from her song
luv it...

pain..!

suddenly heart so damn pain
cant breathe
pain ar

dunno wat happen
aikz
sienz ar

mayb me very cold ba
=.=" a good reason..

hand oso cold
feet got wear sock
so not really
cold~

ahlah~
so damn sienz

damn u!

i wonder how u get ur driving licence
ma de
dunno parking izit u
damn u
always 1 car park 2 car space
nia sing ar
got place park oso let u make until no space park edi
really wanna complain u!
if u gv me complain u very dai wok i tell u

i edi rmb u car reg lo
NX02 EJJ
sei jj
diu 9 u arr!!!
park ur space lar
aiyer
very very very dulan u

another car oso like tat
woi
duno parking go hm slp lar
come out for wat
sumore wan BAAA G my parking space
kanasai

chi sin 1...
like tat again
ur car will bcum [ fa min mao ] i tell u
ma de
shit lar u 3!
go die lar
me parking oso very char sui de lar
u 3 still shit than me
go yak si laaaaaaa

du 9 lan arr!

pig pig pig...

went to skul..
kanasai...snow all day..
not big oso...
yak si laaa

come back hm on9..
then talk to him
tat time lay on mummy bed
wah..
so big so nice
so DAMN comfort
make me wan to slp
talk talk then slp jor
wahkakakz..he say me is pig+cow
always very cow...
always very lazy like pig..=.="

slp at 6pm
ask bro wake me up at 7pm
but when he wake me up
i still wan to slp ar
dun fan me sin..
mummy come up..
[WOII!!!! wake up ar u! nite time no nid slp ar??!]

dunwan fan me sinnnn
still slpppp
slp til 9pm
then mummy say TING TING find u arh

har? whr?
finally wake up jor
then go bring ting ting cum over to my house
hahaz..only ting ting can let me wake up..
see la...hw much i luv her...HOHOZZ

then eat nasi lemak..herm
y tat chili sweet 1? @.@

afta tat ting come upstair play
laugh sei me
her pampers falls down
HAHAHAHAHAHA
can see her little sii fatt
laugh until i wan die...

then now..
wan slp jor
tmr bro theory test
hope he can pass la
if not .. waste his money + waste my petrol
XDDDD
=.=" so bored..
chi sin jor me..~~~

ouch~

herm..
so damn danger
drive to skul today
damn slippery
omg
tat car behind me still follow so near
wan bang me meh
wan claim insurance izit
aiyer
diu ar
scare lan dou me
heart oso jump out
all da road damn slippery
still stick me so near
sohai

come back hm
arya
eat rice tat time
my heart
lan a
pain again
pain so many day dunno stop
diu..
go shower tat time
wan vomit...eat jor tat thing got garlic
ARRRRRRRR
tolong!!!!!!!!
busuk sei tat garlic
yer

at nite eat kary mee
not hot
but nice

then now...is time to slp
tmr skul + heart pain
CHAO HAI
pain again i will korek out ar!

err..

today went to town
yiiiyer
road damn slippery
tolong...cant walk~
mummy keep grabbing me
me oso wan fall down jor

shopping buy jor new minnie pyjamas
haha...many Mickey&minnie pyjamas lu~~~
see online
damn
many nice tee
i luv t-shirt arhxxx
wan buy so damn many
i think total is rm180
dunno..ask her wait her reply~~

come back online
herm..
not a happy ending
aikz...suin jor la
dunno hw to say jor..

K mui~
gambateh!
go back ah jie sayang...
^^

muackzz

money money money!!!

i wan money larh
so damn many t-shirt i wan buy
so damn many cute things i wan
SO DAMN MANY MICKEY i wan!!!!!!!

y dunwan employ me jek
aiyer
i wan work ar
i wan money ar
U mother FUCKER~

stupid ..
yak si yak si

whr can find money...
oii...up thr
dun gv me snow
gv me MONEY!!!!

fan fan fan!!

if am in mY nw..
damn good

so i will be able to do many thingSSS
damn it!

if am in mY
ashley no nid so damn fan jus bcoz of da airticket
i can handle for her

if am in mY now
i can renew my DAMN passport which is expired on the date i wan go HK
shit!

if am in mY now
i can bank in the money myself for da t-shirt i wan to buy
diuuuu

all jus bcoz am not in mY
cause so damn many problems
wan do wat oso cannot
chao hai..
ish!

dat passport really make me so damn..
i duno
uncle said i still can book for flight
soo lii yee said cannot
must at least 1 month
diu..die lorh
might go to london renew
but nid to wait til april holiday
tat time..air ticket harga
i pengsan...
but i still wan to go..
i wan see my mickey
i go disneyland
wan go travel wif frenzz..

haihz..
better she buy others ppl air ticket
i dunwan ppl blame on me say wait for me
then the price went up
i buy myself at the end lu..
as long as i can go..everything is alrite for me
aikz
so damn fan...fan sei ngor

aikz..i oso dunno
jus wan go travel only
oso wan so many problem
if got problem again
i go BANG tat air asia company..!
diu 9 u!
choose u as our flight u dun gv us problem laa!
if not i boom 7 u arh!
ding! arh!!!!!!
sot 9 jor la me...

hope it will snow again!
so i dun hafta go to skul
wahahaha...
plzzz...praying**
snow snow snow~~~

freezing!

damn freezing outside
road damn slippy
very very hard to drive
even HARD to WALK
walk oso will pokai
uncle simon said tmr might be snow again
yes yes yes
then i dun hafta go to skul
XDDD

today..
erm..
mood ok larhxx...
not so moody le
coz ting ting here
hoho..
she is so CUTE
when she say da barney song
[ i love u~ u love me~ we r happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to u..
want u say u love me too...]

she come n hug n kiss me lehh!
so cute larhxx...
then she play my piano..
sing sing suddenly come to kiss me again
hahahaz...i very l0ve her!!!
she is my baby...kakaz

headache whole day..
damn..dunno izit always late slp
aikz..but when ting ting kiss me
then no pain jor..magic~~wahkakaz
hoping friday no skul as well

if they re-open
i wont go anyway...
its too DANGER for me go drive
n am not going to RISK MY LIFE jus for few lessons
haa...
ting..jie jie love u arhx...~~

snow snow arhxxx

ytd midnite edi snow very heavy
snow snow snow dunno stop
wahhhaaa
very good lor
edi plan not to go skul today de
who so stupid snow so heavy still wan go
not me lor...malaysia style...^^
early morning skul text mummy
we no nid go skul bcoz is really dangerous
good wa..not me ponteng lor tis time
is college close..sumore tmr oso close
if thursday close i wont go friday oso

very cold..
road very slippy..

tis few days
heart very pain..
not those sad de heart pain..
is real pain... i took medicine oso no use
mayb no rest dou...
must rest more liao..if nt.. later die jor i cannot go hk..
i wan go..!

kuan..thx u fer caring me leh
u are the 1st person who care me once da problem happen
u oso promised me that if i got anything
u oso will care me de...wont leave me alone
yeah..^^ wait u do tis hah..

thx bek bek yap oso..
although she talks all oso i noe de
but leh..still thx...

thx sha yii n ricky..
gving me advice stuff like tat
hope sha yii gets well soon

thx mummy !!
mummy not saying anything
but i noe she ask me go out jus to let me relax my feelings
rather than just stay at hm facing laptop
mii mii i L0Ve u!! the most!!!

da lang~da lang~da lang~~~ pink panther song..
herm...nice~ kakazz

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dunno wat title wan to put
so jus - blank -

finally i go to slp at 7pm ytd
damn tired
but .. i heard my phone got msg
is him..
i woke up at 3am
his msg say..
i scold her...
I WHERE GOT
i didnt scold her at all!
afta reply his msg
cant slp
stay up .. online awhile
5am..headache very bad
go back to slp
8am wake up again
me like tis very rosak lor my body
wake up check phone he didnt reply
i get ready to skul
saw ashley ask me..
who is tat girl
i knew she saw tat pic
she go ask him...
even a frenz..see edi oso will ask
lagi dun say am ur girl lor
aikz...damn sakit

ready to go skul
mother fucker ar
my car all is ICE
use water oso cannot
walau...took me long time lorhxxx
cold dou sei
-6 lehxx...TMD

go til skul
no heart listen wat teacher talking
all bullshit bullshit
dun kacau me
back hm
online
sha yii call
say she car accident
hope she gets well soon arr

on9 at nite
i cryyyyy so damn long
nearly 1 hours
my eyes damn red
like monster
i cannot stop crying
all the thing he said
just make me...aikz...
i really so sum tong

sumtimes..not i wan argue
if i argue sure got sth wrong geh
dun keep say until me like to gaduh
i dun like...WHO LIKE???

one of the thing..
tin shing is more important than me
u finally admit tis
the reason for tis is
i cannot help u
yes...i really cannot
am useless
but when i nid help.can u?
not i wan to compare..
jus saying the truth
u cannot help me doesn't mean tat u r not important in my heart u noe?
u dunno...
aikz..
i oso dunno jor...
felt like...
everytime oso my fault...very lazy to talk wif u..
go shower better.......

不开心

我整晚没睡
想说等你比赛完和我谈下天
可惜没有
你自己跑去睡了
我还在等

等了好久
都没回复我
我也猜到你睡着了

很无聊
在网上游荡
想想下也很久没去你profile了
按了进去
看了不该看到的照片
我仔细的看每一张照片
有她的..她都牵得你好紧
我看了心里不爽
再来
只有你和她的
也贴很近
可是下面却写着
[ my boyfriend ]
我的心就被刺了好多好多下
一直重复的看
看了又看...看了再看
心里真的很不舒服
为什么
我才是你女朋友啊...这句话也只有我能说啊
为什么会是他说
越想越难过
发信息问你...你应该还在睡
回我说是玩玩的
你知道一直以来
我对这些事从来就不玩
我的心好痛
为什么一个别的女生
说你是他男朋友
我不能忍受..我忍不到
即使是玩的我也不允许...这些你都应该很了解

反过来
你说我想那么多做什么
我有想多吗？是他做多了吧
到最后也是我的错
我真的很想知道
在你的立场
男女朋友是这样的吗

我跟好一点的男生谈话
你告诉我你吃醋
那为什么我就不能吃醋
我的眼泪
一颗一颗的流
一直再流
你说
现在有人不要你吗
有人抛弃你吗

我心里想说
不是因为你要离开我
我才会哭的...
我重视我们的感情
我不能忍受那样

可是我那时哭得眼睛很模糊了
看不清楚自己在写什么了
也没力了

对
我错了
我不对了
也就这样...你去睡了
留我在那里无声痛哭...
眼睛很红了
心也很痛了

最后的我
还是不明白
我错了嘛?

not a happy day...

a conversation wif aunt
she said tat...her baby is getting very naughty nowadays
dunwan let her come to me
jus bcoz when she comes then dunwan go home
dunwan her mum
all this just bullshit lar honestly
but tis
remind me...of my childhood

*shit*

when my mum left us
i hate her to be honest
and she knows tat i hate her
i scold her at phone
never wan to see her
never wan to talk to her
tat time i was only 9-10 years old

i dunno ANYthing
dunno wats going on between mum n dad
dad told me
mum dunwan u edi

for a 9 years old girl
how can she live after tat
thats wat on my mind tat time
i nid my mum
i nid her...but shes gone
far away...

by the time i get older
i listen to both side
mum told me tat...it was dad
but dad told me tat..it was mum
so i decided not to listen..=.="

i noe mum was telling the truth
dad too...but it just hard to say anything
or do anything just bcoz
am a child

afta all this shit happened
i choose to forgive my mummy
i start to talk to her...go out wif her
even...i miss her
but dad dislike larhx...

she always is my mummy
tis is da fact
never change...
NEVER..nobody can change...
no matter how
mum is mum
how can u say dunwan ur mum
i really very very disagree bout wat she said

even shes only a baby
but when she gets older
she wont be like tat
she will always stick wif her mum
coz ... u always her mum
ok..clean all that bullshit tat is in ur mind

dun think ur child is rubbish
think their are the BEST child ever in the world
OK mou?
aikz...

so damn moody..
kanasai
grrrrr!!!!!!! =.="

yearhhh..T_T

today 1/1/2010
last year so fast passed jor wa...
aikz...
but oso ok larhxx
quite looking forward to tis yr

why?!?!

coz we going to HK!
yehhh
disneyland disneyland...
i coming coming to see u mickey mousee
muackz muackz
lolxx..

cant wait til aug
wuulala
i noe time pass very fast geh lar
sekejap can see my dar bii n frenz n familyyy
yo yo yo...tunngu me arhxxx

today work..
ish..damn quite
whr u all guai lou go..
no nid eat 1 mehx...CALL IN LA iiiyerr

sit thr dunno do wat ar me
sienz dou sei...
wulala~~~

tomoro sat..
work oso nehx..
wan money wan work
wan buy a lot of thingss
no money will mati...

tis new year...
S-I-E-N-Z arhx..!