meaningless

yes i can be strong
yes i can live without u
yes i can forget u easily
yes this
yes that
i do my best just to let it go
who the fuck would like to suffering in tis kind of situation
i jus need somebody to console
y i get fuck by ppl
[u the one who let it go. u the one who regret nw]

y i will brk up wif him
y? disappointed!
hw many promised he made
bt hw many he do it for me
promised me tis n tat
bt DO NOTHING
nobody noe hw much he promised me
nobody noe hw many time i forgive him
1 time..2 time..3 time...until 10 times
still wan hw many times to forgive
i promised i do it
he promised dun hv to do then promised is for wat!
i brk up wif him..i very happy?
who the fuck noe i everyday cant slp
who noe i unhappy
all jus say am the one who wanna brk up
never thk the one who say brk up will get hurt too?
if i dun love him. i can jus forget him jus like the wind pass by
bt am nt
in tis 2 years so many thg he hurt me i oso forgive him
bcoz of wat? fun a?
every little thg will remind me of him for whole day
tis feeling is not nice at all
am dying deep inside n who noe
i dun dare talk to mum..dunwan she worry
i talk to u..u say is me
who sumore i can talk to
i dun hv much frenz...u r my best frenz
hw cum u nt support me..i really dunno hw to say my feeling
am nt really wanna brk up wif him
bt hw can he never find me for a whole week afta i bk from kl
i edi told him my phone no credit
he oso no on9 come find me
jus bcoz he saw tat msg then judge me
judge me is wif ah bear
is tis fair?
FAIR ONOT...he is my bf
hw can he nt belif me all the time
he always nt belif me...i oso like tis
then? y no ppl say i good
i really so bad meh
bad until brk up oso no nid console me meh
he at thr..u all see very easy..
am ALONE here
who can see my cat face when i cry in midnite
he unhappy..call frenz clubbing
i unhappy...cry myself...
tis call fair meh?
i really dunno hw only is fair
i do my best jus for him
and at the end wat i get is jus nth
i bcoz of him..go bk 2 times...poor until no money to eat
i bcoz of him..argue wif family say i dunwan stay uk anymore
i wan go back...then gt fuck by mum n dad
i drink until wan die..asma come..vomit wong dam sui..WHY
all jus bcoz of him..JUST HIM!
i wat oso bcoz of him....n wat i get? nth
am the bad one. he is the best one
am the most bad girl in this world
am the most stupid girl in this world
used to imagine he is my husband and be wif me rest of his life
all tis jus imagine..not real at all
i use true heart to love u
and all i get from u is nth.
not even any position in ur heart at all.