gik sim. .

gik sum sei ngor jor...
sad sei ngor jor...
haihz...
u dunwan see me meh?
u 1 year see me 3 weeks enuf jor a?
dunwan see jor??!!! count count oso dunno got 2 weeks onot
since i go back go here n thr
nw i can go back 3 MONTHS worh dai lou
u ask me dun go back? so cantik la u
i oso dunno hw to say edi me...
so faint arh!
dun care jor..
luckily mummy say can go back
lolx..sumore go back wif us
oh yah! go Thailand go Taiwan
yes i want!
travel everywhr
here go go there go go
here eat eat there eat eat
muahahxxx! but dun wish to vomit =.="
go back wan celebrate my 21st la!!!
i wan a big big bday party
MAIN POINT - DRINK,DRANK,DRUNK!
pub,cafe,CLUB anywhere! DRINK!!!!!!!
drink die me! the best~!!!
otak stuck again..nid use beer to make it work again
LOLX YEAH!!!!!!
FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!

so.faint

back malaysia for 3 weeks
do nth =.=
waste~

but worth 1 thg
my jay chou!!
lolx.

damn hate vomit
non stop. so faint!
eat wat vomit wat
waste la! sienz jor. die soon
but good too...lost weight! haha
so thin me. XD
not giving anyone a chance to call me fei po
ha-ha-HA!

[mistake]

middle of the nite
i miss u by [mistake]
i thk of u by [mistake]
i cry by [mistake]
sorry but..cant help it
human do make mistake dont we?

i used to tell myself
i already forget u
i already let it go
but somehow...
i cant.

i thk i need longer time to let u go
or am finding an excuse for myself to let u stay in my mind?
ha...i dunno
but. i do know. i miss you.

luv daddy so muchie...= )

have a nice talk wif daddy yesterday
daddy so support me..
i told him everythg he jus say
[no matter hw i oso stand by ur side]
so gam dung
daddy i promised u
in tis 3 months i surely will let it go
will nt thk about him anymore
i will do it!!!!!!
still talk alot wif dad
daddy say am a brave girl
will do the best for the thg i want
so...i will do my best just to let it go
i wont find u all to talk about my thgs anymore
mayb u all jus feel very sienz when listening wat am talking
so...i rather talk to dad...
at least..he wont jus answer me [dun thk so much]
daddy i luv u so much
get well soon..!!

-

知道真相真的会让我狂飙泪
我知道一定会很痛
可是我就是控制不到自己不去问他
到底是真是假
答案不是我想要的
我哭的无法停止
很痛
我总爱用伤害最深的方式
去忘记你
我讨厌这样
放弃是我唯一能做的
我一定会
我一定会狠狠的忘记你
不会再期待着什么奇迹
别傻了
我彻底失望
对你 我彻彻底底的感到失望

meaningless

yes i can be strong
yes i can live without u
yes i can forget u easily
yes this
yes that
i do my best just to let it go
who the fuck would like to suffering in tis kind of situation
i jus need somebody to console
y i get fuck by ppl
[u the one who let it go. u the one who regret nw]

y i will brk up wif him
y? disappointed!
hw many promised he made
bt hw many he do it for me
promised me tis n tat
bt DO NOTHING
nobody noe hw much he promised me
nobody noe hw many time i forgive him
1 time..2 time..3 time...until 10 times
still wan hw many times to forgive
i promised i do it
he promised dun hv to do then promised is for wat!
i brk up wif him..i very happy?
who the fuck noe i everyday cant slp
who noe i unhappy
all jus say am the one who wanna brk up
never thk the one who say brk up will get hurt too?
if i dun love him. i can jus forget him jus like the wind pass by
bt am nt
in tis 2 years so many thg he hurt me i oso forgive him
bcoz of wat? fun a?
every little thg will remind me of him for whole day
tis feeling is not nice at all
am dying deep inside n who noe
i dun dare talk to mum..dunwan she worry
i talk to u..u say is me
who sumore i can talk to
i dun hv much frenz...u r my best frenz
hw cum u nt support me..i really dunno hw to say my feeling
am nt really wanna brk up wif him
bt hw can he never find me for a whole week afta i bk from kl
i edi told him my phone no credit
he oso no on9 come find me
jus bcoz he saw tat msg then judge me
judge me is wif ah bear
is tis fair?
FAIR ONOT...he is my bf
hw can he nt belif me all the time
he always nt belif me...i oso like tis
then? y no ppl say i good
i really so bad meh
bad until brk up oso no nid console me meh
he at thr..u all see very easy..
am ALONE here
who can see my cat face when i cry in midnite
he unhappy..call frenz clubbing
i unhappy...cry myself...
tis call fair meh?
i really dunno hw only is fair
i do my best jus for him
and at the end wat i get is jus nth
i bcoz of him..go bk 2 times...poor until no money to eat
i bcoz of him..argue wif family say i dunwan stay uk anymore
i wan go back...then gt fuck by mum n dad
i drink until wan die..asma come..vomit wong dam sui..WHY
all jus bcoz of him..JUST HIM!
i wat oso bcoz of him....n wat i get? nth
am the bad one. he is the best one
am the most bad girl in this world
am the most stupid girl in this world
used to imagine he is my husband and be wif me rest of his life
all tis jus imagine..not real at all
i use true heart to love u
and all i get from u is nth.
not even any position in ur heart at all.